Aftershocks

04:16
Andy Livingston
2017
Andy Livingston

Story

The last straw for me was him saying, “This is going to be harder for you than it is for me” after I told him I needed to take a break from our friendship. The first straw was him saying, “You’re not physically attractive.” So, there was this emotional earthquake, and I was standing in the rubble of what I thought could have been an amazing building and started questioning whether or not I could be attractive enough for anyone. It got to the point where I would look in the mirror and think, “Maybe he’s right.” What shook me so much about hearing that is because I’ve been so used to people being satisfied with seeing me as a physical object. So, I wondered, if I don’t have the physical, then what do I have to offer? The aftershocks came every time I replayed those words. The lyrics here are somewhat intentionally galimatias, and I made them such as a way to express, lyrically, the confusion we experience when people say hurtful things. Thankfully, that was more than a year ago now, and the shaking has long since stopped.

Lyrics

His earthquake shook me like a roller coaster

on his one inch trick, well, maybe two at most.

Oh, yeah but everybody knows

it’s not that kind of show.

Then it stopped just long enough

for me to brace myself

for the eventual aftershocks

 

Six feet under with a hole in one

when I mistook his smile for a smoking gun.

He said, “You must be on

something stronger than ibuprofen.” I call it, “How-to-ruin-everything-in-just-one-month.”

Oh yeah, and here it comes,

ready or not.

If I held on more tightly, could I

stop this from shaking?

 

A 2-bit maybe had a hammer tongue,

and he was banging out my heartbeat

on a broken drum.

I said, “I won’t take this for long.”

How did he respond?

“A buffet trophy for my ego shelf,” he said,

“you’re hot dressed as a hole,

but not as anything else.”

 

A slut shamer bottomed all the way to the top

of his imaginary friend. The fashion cop

said he was down for more, but

Blue Book said he wasn’t worth that much, and

so we all cashed out when Midas lost his touch.

Oh yeah, and here it comes

ready or not.

If I held on more tightly, could I

stop this from shaking?

 

A part-time sandwich with a sticky spread. Yeah, but he looked like “someone” with a capital ‘S’. You know, I had a hunch

once that he would make the perfect mess,

and so I went for broke no matter what he said

oh yeah, and here it comes,

ready or not.

If I held on more tightly, could I

stop this from shaking?

 

Picking up the pieces since his insurance

refused to pay for any of the damages done

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